what shall I do?

**blows dust of the blog** *yet again*

Haha.... so its been a month....
yeah kinda looong ryte..
well was busy...(yeah ryte..)
haha.. anyway.... was just thinking of writing about something....
but by the time i signed in, read my page and clicked "new post" i have now forgotten what I wanted to update....
lets ponder what I was going to write.....
hmmm.....

**after 2minutes...*
 of messing with my hair and rolling on the bed (dont picture that) I have remembered what I was going to write...

Hmm... as you all know(should know....after the numerous twitter andfacbook updates. =__+)
Im currently doing my degree in biomedical science...
I was thinking..(always do) ... is this degree the right one for me...
last friday (19-8-2011) was the one year anniversary i enrolled for my course..
**party stuff flying around** **ok not so much**
I keep on thinking.. "hmmm... I am going to end up in the lab.."..."Im not going to be paid well..." ..."im going to be bored in the lab".... "!!!!!!!!"
anyway....I entered this course a year ago because I wanted to do my MBBS.. (bachelor of medicine) and by doing my biomedical degree 1st I could do a double degree and go on to 2nd year medical studies.....
bt there are issues...
1st of all I have to get a high pointer...hmm
then... money probs...hmm
then the fact that the Msian government has put up these "medical freeze"...
While it does not affect me doing my MBBS.... it got me thinking.... if they are putting up a freeze or whatever because there are  TOO many Doctors in Msia ryte... so I f I do my MBBS ill end up being placed in some corner of Msia(which I dont mind actually) without a chance of achieveing anything.... because of the number of doctors... i wouldnt be able to climb the "medical ladder" (this is not a real term)...
hmmm... I really want to become a doctor....
okay.... now another thing that worries me is...
lets say I dont do my MBBS...
I work with the biomedical science degree.....
people say there are many job opportunities.... but mostly all my lecturers are ex-MSU biomedical science degree students(after doing their varies Masters degree of course).... get what I mean?
I mean if there are so many jobs... why do many of them end up back at MSU lecturing...
something just occurred to me while writing this... actually over the years right.. they must have been many students... but not all of them are lecturers here ryte...
okay scratch that theory.... not all of them end up here after all.. just some..
oh and Im certainly NOT becoming a lecturer... I'll end up strangling the annoying students....
Hahahaaha...
anyway... people say we can do our masters and/or phd(coz if u get a high pointer u can straightway do your phd)...
but what shall I do with a masters or phd? be in the lab or lecturer.... we still end up back in square one...
I'm SO CONFUSED!!!!!!
Hmm....
I'm really considering changing my course...
and Im the kind of person that thinks changing course after may months studying it is a waste of time... but here I am considering it...
Okay... now that Im those people's shoes I understand why they want to change their study course......
hmmm.....
so how?
should I leave MSU and change my course?
or stay and just do it...hopping all will be okay??

 

ANGRY!!!!!

Is angry!
okay.... I know everyone goes all around the world visits all the places under the sun!
but I dont!
so If the Anatomy and Physiology Assignment is to join an Amazing Race like thing called MetaboliRace ..... from Shah Alam --> Perak --> Penang!  I WANNA GO!
I know for you people its boring and stuff!!!!
But I have never beeen to Penang! and am sick of hearing people tell its nice n stuff...
I WANNA GO TOO!
OkAY!!! I like to go places! its just that I cant!
YOu people go all around the world!
I DONT!!
*whyamIrepeatingmyself*
anyway!!!
I REALLY HOPE METABOLIRACE 3 HAPPENS!!!
I dont care if you people dont wanna go BUT I DO!!!!
I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY HOPE IT HAPPENS!!!!!!!
I'm so sick of people telling me its expensive n stuff!!!
It your apart of the GRADE FOR YOUR SUBJECT FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!!
ok fine.. I UNDERSTAND!!! u people are LAME!! and NO FUN!!
You want to sit in front of the computer, search the internet and pass up some report u copy and pasted from wikipedia! so LAME!
you say it expensive!! but when you want to go with your family to places can!!!
but this cannot!!!!
is so angry!!
anyway!!!
good bye!


tommorow I have a presentation for Biochemitsry class about water!!!
wish me luck!
*am gonna wear formal lets hope I dont look out of place*
cya......

I have this thing...

*blows off dust from blog*
*is crazy coz thinks blog is a physical thing that can collect dust particles*

Its been a long time since I last blogged....
OK so....
I have a VERY short temper...
as some people might know....
I also have this thing.. where... when I'm angry at something or someone to much!
that I start to think what to do; Do I shout at them? Give them a piece of my mind? or whatever..
BUT if I sleep and wake up after all that thinking.. even if I start to to other things....
I'll just forget about it.....
I just give up on it.....
I am not angry anymore...... unless that person does it again or thing happen again....
why does this happen???
hmmmm.....
anayway... thats another little bit of my world....
till we meet again....

Is it hard to believe...

Ok...

If you know me, you would know that...

--i've NEVER stayed in a hotel before....

--havent been on an official family vacation before.....

--I love to make jokes and make people laugh...

-- hates liars and backstabbers (then again who does...)

--never had an official best friend to tell everything too..... I think I have one now....

--never been in a relationship...

--loves to talk to everybody and make friends.... and has gotten the title "famous" because I do that....

--I make friends just for the fun of it, not expecting anything in return....

--I get angry very easily.... 

--I don't trust people that easily after all the things I've been through personally...

--I am not so calculative with friends...

--I love to help people in anyway that I can..

-- its very hard for me to say "NO" when someone asks for help....

-- want to not care about what people think... but sometimes, okay most of the time I do care... I've no idea why but I do...

--I LOVE MUSIC! who doesn't right?

--I love soft drinks..

-have never been clubbing...want to though.. hahaha

-- I dont use "LOL" or "MAN"(when referring to a friend, e.g -yo man whats up?) or 'Dude"or "Bro"...

--I like to mix languages when I speak....

--I secretly (ok maybe its not much of a secret) want to be the host of my very own show..... 

--I Love science....

--I LOVE to Talk...

well anyway.. those were some of the random facts about my life....

So , yeah!..   

till i get bored again and decide to update...

C0nfu23d!

I'm so confused.....
whether to get a new phone or not.......
I want the Xperia Play.... but RM1650, is it too much for a phone...
thought of getting the Galaxy Mini for only RM 5++ but I don't really fancy Samsung....
I love to play games, but the games on the Play might be expensive.....
and so it might be a waste to get that phone. but I checked online and it says the games go for about USD $1- US $10, i think that is okay..
but not too sure about the price in Malaysia..
next problem, I have no idea the games available in Malaysia for the Play.......
I watched on Youtube and read online that we can actually download emulators so that we can play GBA or NDS games, again, I'm sure if it is available in the Malaysian Android Market.....
hmmm...
Searched on my Friend's Android and saw that there were emulators but not so sure whether they work or not...
Ok confused...
that's all the confusion for today...
till next time....

Loser like me.....

This song is an original compostion by GLEE....
they sang it for their Regionals competition...
love this song because they admit who they are...
unlike SOME PEOPLE....
what they mean in this song is...
even though they're called names like Loser and stuff they DONT CARE and are better than to care....
=)

Loser Like Me

Glee Cast

(Lea Michele/Rachel)

Yeah, you may think that I'm a zero
But, hey, everyone you wanna be
Probably started off like me
You may say that I'm a freakshow (I don't care)
But, hey, give me just a little time
I bet you're gonna change your mind

All of the dirt you've been throwin' my way
It ain't so hard to take, that's right
'Cause I know one day you'll be screamin' my name
And I'll just look away, that's right

(Chorus)
Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the words you got and knock me down
Baby, I don't care
Keep it up, I'm tunin' up to fade you out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me
A loser like me

(Cory Monteith/Finn)

Push me up against the locker
And hey, all I do is shake it off
I'll get you back when I'm your boss
I'm not thinkin' 'bout you haters
'Cause hey, I could be a superstar
I'll see you when you wash my car

All of the dirt you've been throwin' my way
It ain't so hard to take, that's right
'Cause I know one day you'll be screamin' my name

And I'll just look away, that's right

(Chorus)
Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the words you got and knock me down
Baby, I don't care
Keep it up, I'm tunin' up to fade you out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me
A loser like me
A loser like me

Hey, you, over there
Keep the L up-up in the air
Hey, you, over there
Keep the L up, 'cause I don't care
You can throw your sticks, and you can throw your stones
Like a rocket, just watch me go
Yeah, l-o-s-e-r
I can only be who I are

(Chorus)
Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the words you got and knock me down
Baby, I don't care
Keep it up, I'm tunin' up to fade you out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me
A loser like me

(Chorus)
Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the words you got and knock me down
Baby, I don't care
Keep it up, I'm tunin' up to fade you out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me (A loser like me)
A loser like me (A loser like me)
A loser like me

Credits : Lyrics from : www.lyricsty.com
               Video from : www.youtube.com

Count On You

Heard this song when my friend Hani posted this on her Facebook page...

love the lyrics...

really meaningful...

you should listen.... the video is below the lyrics...

Count On You

Big Time Rush ft. Jordin Sparks

Now I’m about to give you my heart
But remember this one thing
I’ve never been in love before
So you gotta go easy on me

I heard love is dangerous
Once you fall you never get enough
But the thought of you leaving
Ain’t so easy for me

Don’t hurt me
Desert me
Don’t give up on me

What would I wanna do that for?

Don’t use me
Take advantage of me
Make me sorry I ever counted on you

1, 2, 3, 4 to 5 baby, I'm counting on you [4x]

Understand I’ve been here before,
Thought I found someone I finally could adore
But you failed my test,
Got to know her better saw I wasn’t the only one

But I'm willing to put my trust you,
Baby you can put your trust in me

Just like a count to 3,
You can count on me and you're never gonna see
No numbers in my pocket.
Anything I’m doing girl I'll drop it for you
Cuz you’re the one I'm giving my heart to but I gotta be the only one

Don’t hurt me
Desert me
Don’t give up on me
What would I wanna do that for?

Don’t use me
Take advantage of me
Make me sorry I ever counted on you

1, 2, 3, 4 to 5 baby I’m counting on you [4x]

I really hope you understand
That if you wanna take my hand
You should put yours over my heart
I promise to be careful from the start

I trust in you with love in me
Very very carefully
Never been so vulnerable
Baby I'll make you comfortable

1, 2, 3, 4 to 5 (yeah)
Baby I'm counting in you (oh)
1, 2, 3, 4 to 5 (why would I want to do that hey yeah)
1, 2, 3, 4 to 5 baby I'm counting on you
1, 2, 3, 4 to 5

Now I’m about to give you my heart
So remember this one thing
I've never been in love before
Yeah you gotta go easy on me. 

Lyrics from : www.azlyrics.com

Video from : www.youtube.com

Carrying my own bucket is heavy.....

I'm NOT carrying my own bucket okay(angkat bakul sendiri)....
but I love to help people...
I dont know why.... when I some one needs something I'll try to do it....
and if people ask me to do something I'll do it..
I cant say no....
so, I was the class representative for TOO many classes and lab sessions in the first semester( not of my own accord)
now for mostly every class thing, everyone expects me to know and inform them...
I'm like... WTH... u can excess EKlass (our online class system to get timetables, results, notes...etc)
but still I have to be the one updating it...
HELLO... get it yourself....useless.....
people dont understand... they think I'm complaining and exaggerating, but they're not in my shoes, so they dont get it..
they will NEVER get it at this rate.....
they dont know that people randomly will message me asking where's the class when for the past 5 weeks (example) they have been going there... I'm like thinking to myself... are you dumb or are you DUMB!
and asking me the day before will there be class the next day..
EXCUSE ME, did the lecturer say anything about cancelling the class, and hint of that... No right...
so WHY THE HELL ask me that...
this happened when I was class rep..
but they still think I am...
this is MY FAULT... because I'm too nice to share the info I get.... they can get the same info but they're LAZY!...
like when the exam timetable comes out..... I'll post it on the class Facebook page... so they expect me to do it all the time...
HELLO!!...
I'm seriously stopping doing that la....
no more...
enough is enough.........
and the BEST part is... when I do so much for them, they stil MOCK me... yes...
saying I'm the BEST CLASS REP LA.... MSU LOVER IT SEEMS....
I didn't ask you to appreciate me, just don't diss me or mock me...
people helping you and you can do that... such good peope your are...
you know what, there arent many people like me who would do what I do you know... just saying..
again not self-praising  but these people make me so angry sometimes...
hmmm.....
Ok so..... thats all...
till next time...

Why do I do this?

I always do this you know...
I'll open soo many windows in the internet browser...
and just leave them there..
really...
if i'm doing an assignment...
I'll find the information.... open the websites and link..
I'll even open Microsoft word.. then just let it hang there... with maybe just the title..
sometimes blank even..
then go do something else...
even when watching movies of tv shows or videos..
Ill open all of them...then walkaway.. and go do something else...
like go on facebook or go play a game...
not to buffer(it does take that long to buffer)..
I dont know why im do this.....
ill do something... get soooo bored... then do something else.....
why do you call this?

thats the thing...
sometimes...
ill be watching an episode of some show.... pause go do something else..
then remember I have a show on pause...
like WTH right.... haha

its like madness....

EVEN NOW... Im watching youtube videos... i clicked on them...

then went to another website and started watching pokemon episode... halfway left...

then on facebook....chatting, liking, commenting.. etc...

then randomly went to Google something questions about some games I'm playing....

maybe i get bored easily....

yeah I thing thats it.. i get BORED and DISTRACTED easily...

and maybe im LAZY.. like to do assignments and stuff... haha

haha I discovered why I do that now..

this BLOG really is useful....

i already knew i get distracted easily(discovered this a long time ago)...

but I didnt know it was this bad...

hahaha

see this is a pic of my screen... if you can see all the windows open at once..... 

SO, thats basicly what i wanted to update...

random right I noe... haha

just felt like writing about it...

so good bye...

till we meet again....

I am a Nobody

I always have wanted...

and will always want (I think)..
to be FAMOUS!!
I have no idea why...

maybe it because I love to watch TV shows and listen to music...

and when I see how those people are famous and I want to be famous too...

hmm....but alas... I'm a nobody..

at the age of 21... what have I achieved...

am I famous?

am I rich?
have I travelled the world?
have I won an award?

~this reminds me of the song que sera sera~
where she sings...
~~will I be pretty(she sings not me)~~
~~will I be rich~~


anyway getting back to the point...
I feel that I have achieved nothing...


Taylor Swift...(22yrs old in 2011)
is a famous and sensational country/pop SINGER!!...


Kristen Stewart (21yrs old in 2011)

is a famous MOVIE STAR!!!

Emma Watson (21 in 2011)
also another famous MOVIE STAR with countless movies under her belt...


hmm....


Okay, people say being famous is hard...
okay....that might be true...

if you cant handle the paparazzi....( I'm famous...let them do their jobs..but dnt over do it)
dont like being photographed(actually I dnt...unless im famous)...
always be busy and no time for yourself( I dnt mind..I like being busy then being bored)

always attending interviews..and events...and AWARD SHOWS..... (loovvveee it)

want ur life to private... (ha...forget it.. I rather be in tabloids, on the cover of magazines... on the news(Famous News..not some local TV station news...haha...))


then ur not fit or cant handle being famous...

I think I can handle these things...haha..

But some celebrities

like Taylor Swift have said "There's nothing hard about it" when asked about being famous....

"If people heppen to take a picture then you know, you laugh about it in the car" she said on the Ellen DeGeneres Show

she has accepted that that is her life....
thats how you should be...accepting...

--eh, im contradicting myself...Im saying I wanna be famous...but am also saying people should just accept who they are..haha..---

why cant who I am..is being a famous person...(get it?)

so..hmmm...
I want to be FAMOUS AND RICH!! lets hope it happens.... =)
thats all then...
till next time....

P.S- sorry for typos and wrong grammer... was too lazy to check..as asual..

All about hair....

I have always liked to colour my hair...

I have temporary coloured my hair : blue(sorta...stupid can spray)

green

copper(metallic)

purple.....

I have dyed my hair brown once....after form 6 i think it was...

then after the first short sem of BBM I came to campus with reddish+orange hair....

hahaha.... I noe...

Do you know what my friend asked me...

My friend from BBM...

"Hey, did you dye your hair?"

"I was like WTH!!" ---I was thinking to myself(monolog dalaman)---

"obviously la..then what..you think paint fell on my hair and I didn't clean it is it?"--still thinking to myself----

So, I told that person..

"yeah I coloured my hair".... If I told them what I really wanted to say means.......hahaha

anyway.... the point of this post is(I didn't know my posts had a point...haha) that I want to colour my hair RED..I mean like pure RED.. something like Rihanna....

before I enter sem 2....... and leave it for a few weeks...

BUT....

there's this lecturer, Mama P they call her...

she's lecturing me Microbiology next semester...

so I cant do it...

coz.... she doesn't approve of such things.....

anyway....
I also wanna spike up my hair like this... But I don't know how to...haha

and sooooooo...... that my hair dilemma....

anyway.. thats it for now....

make sure to tune in next time...

different time but same place...

=)

Was Bored at 2.34pm

IM REALLY DEAD THIS TIME!

Ok so...few hours ago I sat for my Public Health Final Exam...
I was like.. WTH!!!! 2 days I slept........
I was soooo not prepared...
I think this is the most I have not been prepared for for a paper...
@__@'
lets hope this does not happen again...ok.....
2morow...at 2.30pm(I think....haha) I hav my E-commerce Final Paper....
and what am I doing...updating my blog.........
hahaha... anyway... after 4.30pm.... IM FREEE.....
for 2++ weeks la.......
hmmmm.... anyway.....
everyone in MSU is going home so fastttttt...........
...........
anyway.....
thats all folks...
cya soon............

Was Bored at 2.19pm

I'm Dead....The Future is not that far...

OK so, I have Quizzes in like 10 hours and I havent studied even after I posted that last update.
I should really stop not-studying.... If I really wanna go to Harvard...haha...
Yes I've always dreamed of going to some big ivy league school...
I really want too!!!
OK, after graduating from my Degree course (Bachelor in Biomedical Science,BBM) I really want to continue my studies...
WHY YOU ASK? AM I CRAZY TO STUDY MORE?
actually I like to study and learn new things... weird right?
But I like to learn new stuff...
and I don't wanna be STUCK in the LABORATORY (even though I Love Labs..)
so I was originally planning to do my MBBS.. but since the Government decided to do the FREEZE COURSE THING...
I'm having second thought...actually it started before that itself...
I was thinking of doing another degree..then do my Master/PhD ( wow dreaming high when infact BBM not finished..)
But I also wanna work fast....
because I wanna earn money and GET RICH!! I know the common dream..
But I really wanna do it...
this is beacuse I wanna travel.... as I DONT go on Vacations and have NEVER stayed in a Hotel..
I wanna do it......
But I have to find a carrer that earns loads with alot of free time....
maybe I could become King...@__@
hmmmm...anyway... thats all for now........................................





Was Bored at 12.30 a.m

Quizes, Finals, I'm Dead, Next Sem , MetabolRace....

Was Bored at 11.08 p.m'

So its 11.08p.m...
in roughly 35 hours... I'll be sitting for 3 E-commerce Quizzes and a few hours later another 2 Quizzes for Public Health...
and what am I doing right now... updating my dead blog and watching Pokemon episodes online......
I Know...looks like I'm too free but actually have loads of work piled up...

Finals are NEXT WEEK...and I'm not prepared..... @__@..... I'm Dead

2 weeks of hols *yippy*(sarcastic).. why Im being sarcastic you ask? even if you didnt..here's why.. this is the LONGEST break I've had since Oct 2010... WHY CANT I HAVE MORE HOLS!! haha...

Next SEms starts in about 3-4 weeks...
okay we're gonna learn new things.....
but I'm so scared that I wont be able to cope with the work load....
the subject look hard.....
hmm.... i'll have to face them....

MetabolRace is an assignment for Anatomy andPhysiology II.. its an Outdoor assignment thing which I'm looking forward to, but at the same time I'm scared...because we have to travel form Shah Alam(where MSU is located) to another city far far far away(ok not that far away).. and also stop by checkpoints to answer questions and stuff(I think so...)...

SO this about raps up 4 coming weeks of my life...cya.....

I lost my password and was so lazy to retrieve it

Was Bored at 10.44p.m

So, like the loooong title states, I lost this blog's password thats why I havent updated in agessss...
Why I was lazy to retrieve it was because, I was thinking... "Even if I update my blog who's gonna read it right?"
Then I realised I started this because I wanted to express myself, what do I care If no one reads it....

Ok thats all for now....cya.......................
$!v@